As the peices slip away, I am naked. Quiet in the Dark.
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: saw clone wars today man it was good! better than the real thing!
Well i haven't posted in a bit. I'm not sure what i would say. Theres nothing good to report it would just be me bitching. 1 month recap! sounds like all of my old high school friends with the exception of one or two are gonna be gone this summer (many have graduated and are gone for years) Phil and i are doing better still haven't dealt with all our shit tho Did OK in my classes not great bonus is i passed my first math class final in 9 years! I am realizing all these years of my life being inseparable tied to my friends has been a tactical error. I love them all dearly but there going to live there own lives and thats what adults do i guess. Fucking sucks tho. So all this new free time allows me much opportunity for self exploration (commence eye rolling) Two of my best friends broke up rather out of the blue (makes u wonder about true love huh?) Started back pseudo full time at work today and i walk in and barb tell me that they gave my cubical space to the two new summer students. I almost freaked. I worked my ass off to get a cubical there for 2 years i lugged my fucking desk up 4 flights of stairs last summer just so i could use it! I had to wait sooooo long for a really desk and a monitor thats not 10 inches (try doing data analysis on an 10 inch monitor for 8 hours and u will know what I'm talking about) So theres really no room anywhere in the office for me so i set up my laptop (with a, surprise surprise 10 INCH MONITOR) in the testing room 4 bare walls a tiny table and no windows or pictures (think the "hole" in OZ with less feces) Then i get moved from room to room as ppl need them. FIVE fucking times i had to pack up all my files and move to another place. I don't know how I'm gonna work all summer like this. I'm so pissed off! Plus side is i get to be treated like a doormat by them possibly for another year! AL told me today that I should start work on another grant proposal. i wish i could be more excited but I'm still too pissed off. Too many ppl are psychoanalyzing me and telling me what to do who i should be and how i should feel! FUCK OFF (family this means stay out of my face for a couple of days) One thing i have decided officially is that I'm gonna work harder my web design projects officially and try and make some money off of it by the end of the summer. My coworker who knows about this said today that i was really talented and could make allot of money off of it. My chat bud Tod said i should work on learning to draw better. Theres no reason i cant follow both of there suggestions. Other decision i have made is that i am gonna finish my business degree I thought this would make me feel better, cathartic it didnt