As the peices slip away, I am naked. Quiet in the Dark.
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: saw clone wars today man it was good! better than the real thing!
Well i haven't posted in a bit. I'm not sure what i would say. Theres nothing good to report it would just be me bitching. 1 month recap! sounds like all of my old high school friends with the exception of one or two are gonna be gone this summer (many have graduated and are gone for years) Phil and i are doing better still haven't dealt with all our shit tho Did OK in my classes not great bonus is i passed my first math class final in 9 years! I am realizing all these years of my life being inseparable tied to my friends has been a tactical error. I love them all dearly but there going to live there own lives and thats what adults do i guess. Fucking sucks tho. So all this new free time allows me much opportunity for self exploration (commence eye rolling) Two of my best friends broke up rather out of the blue (makes u wonder about true love huh?) Started back pseudo full time at work today and i walk in and barb tell me that they gave my cubical space to the two new summer students. I almost freaked. I worked my ass off to get a cubical there for 2 years i lugged my fucking desk up 4 flights of stairs last summer just so i could use it! I had to wait sooooo long for a really desk and a monitor thats not 10 inches (try doing data analysis on an 10 inch monitor for 8 hours and u will know what I'm talking about) So theres really no room anywhere in the office for me so i set up my laptop (with a, surprise surprise 10 INCH MONITOR) in the testing room 4 bare walls a tiny table and no windows or pictures (think the "hole" in OZ with less feces) Then i get moved from room to room as ppl need them. FIVE fucking times i had to pack up all my files and move to another place. I don't know how I'm gonna work all summer like this. I'm so pissed off! Plus side is i get to be treated like a doormat by them possibly for another year! AL told me today that I should start work on another grant proposal. i wish i could be more excited but I'm still too pissed off. Too many ppl are psychoanalyzing me and telling me what to do who i should be and how i should feel! FUCK OFF (family this means stay out of my face for a couple of days) One thing i have decided officially is that I'm gonna work harder my web design projects officially and try and make some money off of it by the end of the summer. My coworker who knows about this said today that i was really talented and could make allot of money off of it. My chat bud Tod said i should work on learning to draw better. Theres no reason i cant follow both of there suggestions. Other decision i have made is that i am gonna finish my business degree I thought this would make me feel better, cathartic it didnt

shit is going down
Now Playing: scissor sisters
full update later to stressed

Your Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 Score Is...
	Your Score:	Average For All Users	Average For All Bisexual Liberal Pink-Skinned 19 to 25-Year old Males (24 total)
Dating	26.92%	32.09%	18.75%	Dated seriously
Self-Lovin'	31.82%	59.13%	36.55%	When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself
Shamelessness	62.9%	77.33%	69.09%	It takes a couple of drinks
Sex Drive	57.14%	75%	61.61%	A fool for love, but not always
Straightness	70.37%	36.5%	18.13%	Done the nasty, but not creatively
Gayness	0%	77.07%	47.76%	Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame
Dominant	60%	85.92%	73.33%	Not afraid to tie the knot
Submissive	68.25%	86.18%	76.46%	Bound and gagged a few times
Fucking Sick	74.49%	89.28%	79.72%	Dipped into depravity
Total Score	53.61%	72.72%	57.91%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 and see how you match up! (By The Ferrett)

SINfully delicous!
Now Playing: SIN CITY fools!
Just got back form watching SIN CITY...i suggest anyone who like movies art or classic storytelling GO SEE IT!

It was a little gory but i loved it! they did such a good job of incormprating comic book story telling styles in to a moving narrative...im soo inspired for working on the site now!!

Had a very proiductive day ...worked on doing up a site for my dad.
Rerquests are coming in like crazy now for little art peices...im only getting paid in beer now buuuut its padding my profolio for other things...BIGGER things!!

Things are still kinda odd with me and phil but we ghada really good chat last night and I think were on a much better path now. Its gonna take alot of work buut i know it will be worth it!
gonn get back to work now

Could the internet pirate be reforming arrrrrg!!
Now Playing: biffy clyro
went to the mall today for the first time sicne xmass

I am begingin to realize that the mall isnt marketed to poepl in mydemographic i am in this awkward area where im not a teenybooper and im not a buisnessman grrrrrr
it wasso frustrating i had a 75 dollar gift certificate to sears and i found nothing!

I ran into Stephen a gay friend of dans at the mall and he almost outed me to the family it was kinda close!! but all is well

OH i DID buy a complete set of "the office" the bbc comedy i cnat wait to watch it i saw a couple of episodes and i loved it!\
I still refue to buy dvds for movies i already paid for in the theater!

so i ahvent gone crazy
yet

busy bee
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: the fred durst porn video (oh my)
So my webhosting company for the epicfable site is dead. Its not gonna be back up for a while wich is probably a good thing cuz im gonna be able to focus on the content a little more. I have begin woring up the epic history stuff which is turning out to be more complicated than i thought.

Got some pretty good news form the doctor today which is a huge relife YAY FOR free health care!
Thank u tommy douglas!

Getting a bunch of other stuff doen...Phil and I are working on a website for the local leather emporium. Its unsolicited formt he owner but me and phil figure it would be a service to humanity if we did up a better site Check out the old site Here
but beware and put on protective goggles.
Phil and i are working things out....the chemistry just hasne been there the last few months but after thew weekend we worked som stuff out and we are and i quote "getting back to stability"

Oh also i think im getting into leather gear ....still not sure tho..mmmmmmmmmmmm

Do I look STONED to you......YES?? ummmmm ok then
Mood:  incredulous
Now Playing: ageless beauty by STars
So after a lateish sleepless night last night i wake up after getting like 3 hours of sleep. No biggie i do it all the time.

Im sitting on my bus waiting for it to leave chillin and listening to my PDA (more on that later)
This cute guy who was sitting at t front of the bus comes and sits at the back opposite me.

He taps me on the shoulder and i kinda turn to his direction and hes like hey bud are u stoned?

Pardon? i say
Are u stoned?
WHO ASKS SOME RANDOM PERSON THAT ON THE BUS!!

im like no unfortunatly not.
he says "oh sorry u just looked stoned"
so i proceeded to tell him about my lack of sleep ect.
we acctually had a pretty good convo after that....i was half expecting him to pull out a joint (maybe next time i see him LOL)
plus im not sure if he was checking me out or not (he is in advertising after all and u know how they are)
So there must be soemthing seriously wrong with my morning routine if i end up looking stoned.

Side note my pDA plays has about 500 songs to choose from when its on random shuffle play. It played ageless beauty by stars 3 times in an hour and a half...it has NEVER repeated a song like that b4 on a siggle play round...maybe GOD is trying to tell me something

Apparently stoned

what the hell is going on!!!!
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: stars "ageless beauty"
So i have had a pretty inetense time since i last typed. Phil and i celibarated our 1 year in banff it was spectacular. we then spent the weekend with lucas and Kristal whom i havent spent much time with since the both moved to clagary for 4 months for school, It was sooo much fun...i did my frist legit fondu (can u say fun do!!!!) and i find myself getting more and more into wine...arent i classy>!!


which brings me to tonight
surreal..is how i would describe it!
first of all i passed the my first math exam in 8 years...as most of u know i faild math 113 (calculus) last semester so im taking it againn this semester or i will get kicked out by the school of buisness. So ya i beat the class average by 4% thats enough to bet me a b+ a freakin B+ thats amasing!!!!!!.
so then it was off to the powerplant for celibratory beer\
had an argument mith erin and chels about weather gays and lesibiens should have kids even tho they dont have cloes intimate bonds with the father and mother.....(sureal moment number 2 chels talked about mastubation)
so then it was off to my brothers girlfriends (who lives with us) cheer competition at the U of a there were schools form all over and it was very strange ...... sureal moment number 3 (the whole thing was to0 odd to be sober at)
so then it was off to annas
for her birthday
Erin brought a game that featured emarrasing pictures from our past emarassing expoits this is when things started to go bad.
I get there kinda buzzed and everyone is picking on me for being a drunken slob...alllison puts a napkin on me lik e a bib
this i can handek because i am in general fairly clumsy.

so we start playing the game (if u guess who is in the pic by the caption on the back u can give other ppl a shot)
so naturally everyone is giving me shots as they win there rounds. I am ok with this as its pretty much par for the course for me at a house party. The thing thats bothering me is everyone seems to be saying my name automatically as the decide whos on the photo....and they are alway at least half right.

Iwas in 95% of those pics making an an ass of mysloef
and i was hammered ina ll of them, so then i notice that im in general being treated by everyone in the room as a token joke drunk!
no one seemed to care about what i was saying of how i felt....it was really shitty to realize i had been marginalized into this minor group role.
so thats me the token drunk guy
i am now offically a joke
known far and wide as a that guy....u all know him hes a charming jerk

thats me.
sigh

NEW GLASSES
Now Playing: LOST and ALIAS why arnt u watching them???
heres the pics of my new glasses enjoy all

Introspective or am I picking my nose?

Oddness and champagne
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: My chemical romance- Im not ok
Hey all Just thought i would giv ya'll an update. I got my accounting exam back....sooooo evil I got nailed on a whole bunch of little things and then to make it worse i screwed up a ratio losing me 22 marks YEARG! I hate that class.

Ended up accidentally getting drunk yesterday After going to the optomitrist for my new glasses (pics coming soon) i went to my aunt and uncles with my folks. They just bought a new condo so we all ahd a drink of champagne and so we do the toast and its all cool but my baba her bf and my mom all dont want to finch there champagne (pronounced in my family champ, Pag, KNee) So they all gave me there drinks and i ended up finishing them ...whOOOOO it hit hit me pretty hard had a good buzz going!
Its offical wine is good!

I just scared myself
Now off to do my math quiz

Mission sucess
Now Playing: the von bondies - come on come on
The 1 year aniversary celibration was awsome! Went to Il Portico a swanky italian restraunt. It was expensive but the food was spectacular. Tho i think my salmon made me sick later :(

Im a very lucky man.